The Color White

I was recently reminded of something very dear and important to me. It was the friendship I developed with Rick A. Tripp, a friend in the Navy who at the timee, was very important to me. That is until he decided he knew better than me.

The significance of this story gets lost unless I go back a bit further than my navy days.

As a teenage science major geek disillutioned by science, I embarked on the path to enlightenment. I had no clue what I was doing. I didn’t even know that I was searching for enlightenment. Science's "masters" proposed blind faith in many of their theories much the same as religious fanatics did. There were questions that science had not answered, nor ever would.

I knew that there was more to the world than science and the things we cold perceive. Perception, I knew, was limited by the observer's abilities and I wanted to see beyond that. I had come to know that reality was not as solid as scientists proposed, and there was something I could do about my fate and the world around me and I had to find out how to do that.

After seven and a half years of non orthodox studies, I finally had the answers to all my questions. I had the keys to all the puzzles. For a brief shining moment I understood everything. Part of that knowledge was also to know that I couldnt retain that much knowledge. And although that moment of crystal clarity didn’t last for very long I knew from then on that knowledge and answers were attainable with enough time and effort. The things that I was already forgetting could be found again. I had reached enlightenment. And because of that I also understood the trap.

The road to enightenment never ends because when you reach enlightenment, you realize that the moment is very brief. But you get right back on the path and focus all your energy into reaching that moment again.

I did manage to hold on to a few fundamental principals which were very important keys to life and existence. I left the spiritual road and embarked on a different path. I wanted to share my newfound keys to life and I wanted to enlighten others with these "answers". It took a lot longer for me to finally understand my next lesson.

It wasn’t clearly evident to me at first that truly valuable knowledge, has to be earned. A trophy holds as much value as one struggled to get it. Before realizing this, I wanted to share the knowlege I had earned with others. And much like many philosophers before me, I tried to spare my apprentices, the struggle, pain, disappointments that I had endured to gain knowledge I had. I m talking earthshattering purpose of existence type stuff. And I felt the more people that knew and understood this stuff the better the world would be.

The first one was a teenage girl. I remember clearly as her eyes opened wide as she heard about how they key made so many things possible. I just blurted out information over fish and chips on 72nd street and Broadway, without regard to her ability to tolerate what I was telling her. She beamed with the excitement at first and then became paranoid. She went home because she didnt feel well. The next day she was institutionalized because she suffered a schizophrenic episode.

I was devastated and locked myself in a room for 18 months struggling with guilt. I ended up in the Navy after a few weeks.

The answer must lie in the person’s ability to confront then. I learned that as your ability to confront increases so does your ability to perceive. So the vail could be broken by increasing the ability to confront.

I looked for someone who had a better confront level to begin with. Testing people I met for over two years I finally found someone who had good potential. Rick started out as a friend. We had great times talking philosophy and knowledge all the while I tested and exercised his ability to confront.

I finally gave in and handed him the key. The time it took him to earn it from me must have been worth it because he seemed to truly value it and I continued to show him how to use it. He met a girl then who was into the occult. Silly rituals and chanting that have absolutely nothing to do with the manipulation of reality. Rick began questioning my beliefs and begun favoring his girl’s ritualistic ways, so I triggered some well placed suggestions that would make the key impotent for him and let him be on his way. The last I heard he was in trouble with the law and living in a trailer with his mother. I still care a great deal for Rick and wish he would take the path on his own one day.

It was just about this time that I met John. My god, John had found his own version of the key. Not as raw and simple as mine but a bit diluted by folklore, yet still effective. John was a happy camper using his key and there was no way that I could ever uproot him from his proven methods. Nor did I want to. It worked for him and I would support that.

I decided to try someone a bit older, maybe someone with some more education. My conversations with Robert in North Carolina were long and arduous and although he never even got close to the key, Inoticed that each time he would consider the concept he would get uncontrollably angry. I realized that someone had gone through a great deal of programming of the human race so that exposing this key to them would wake up all kinds of booby traps.

There were dozen of people over the next 10 years I would have like to enlighten but none that would even be interested. Eventually, I found two that worked out real well. They have the key and use it effectively, sometimes even better than me. Both are experimenting and adding to their experiences.

Struggle, it seemed, determined that knowledge’s value, that and a sense of accomplishment. I found that without that struggle, knowledge is never valuable and often dismissed.

Take for example the color white. Then tell someone that doesn’t know that the color white is really all the colors (or waves of color) put together.

What does someone do with that? The usal response is: “Yes… so what?”

Well the researchers that struggled though wave lengths, combinations of light, refractions and all that is involved in the study of light and color, and know how and why white is white. This one fundamental piece of knowledge is overlooked by most people but theses scientists can use it to work with light an energy in ways that most people cant imagine.

Now take someone that has no control of the world around them and give them the one piece of knowledge that shows them how existence itself is there. all that world around them gets there and they say “Oh , I knew that.” Without really understanding what they’ve heard. Changing it in their mind to something their mind can handle more easily and thus making it completely ineffective as a tool to make changes in the world around them.

So as I tried to teach this one thing all my life and I have finally learned, I can only show you the way to enlightemnet but, the road to it must be traveled to the final price. The price, given without truly earning, looses all value.

The final lesson to me was that people don't want to be given the answers. Nobody is really interested in being helped. They just want to bet old that they already have the answers. And they do. They just dont know it.

One thing I hope people learn to do soon is to enjoy the moment. Life is magnificent and they shouldnt miss it. The seemingly unsurmountable problems are insignificant to the power of life.